Make an effort,

It seems to me lately that people are not capable of putting effort into a relationship. And I don't mean a romantic relationship, just friendships. I'm sure romantic relationships too, but I wouldn't know that.

I just feel like people can only do things for themselves. I know I do it too, but I really to attempt to but effort into relationships even if I don't do it all the time. I gets so aggravating making attempts to be a good friend to someone but having them completely disregard everything you do and every attempt you make. I realize life gets complicated and stressful sometimes but I cannot consider that an excuse for someone disregarding a friend. Friends should be the ones you turn to, no? They are the people who are supposed to be there for you in these times, and I am here for my friends. I just feel like maybe they don't consider friends enough to talk to me.

It is becoming a waste of time just to make an attempt. Maybe I shouldn't make an attempt and wait for you. But then I know if I don't bother making an attempt in a week you will IM me and question why I've stopped talking to you. You'll think I am mad at you and ask me if I am, I just won't have to nerve to tell you how much it hurts me that you can't answer an IM or a text message.



I should probably stop stressing over it and just let the situation run it's course, but I don't know if I can do it.






At least the good people are amazing and completely make up for people who don't seem to care enough. They are the reason I can actually manage to stay happy and love my life as much as I do. I'm so completely thankful for them.

This has been

nonexistent for a while, maybe it is time to start it up again.


This past month has been something else, lots of surprises. Things are changing and part of me loves it while the other part is so scared. I've moved from one person to the next then to the next again. This choice is pretty good, but the 1st one is good too. But there are so many choices and choices make everything harder in the end. I guess that is what growing up is all about making choices, I am so not ready for college.