Attending a Catholic

school usually means that one takes religion class.

Freshman year - Catholic History.
Sophomore year - The Gospel
Junior year - Morality
Senior Year - Culture of Peace & World Religion.


Well the freshman class did not learn about the practices and history of the Catholic church today, instead they learned about something much more interesting. That would be a concert, well it was more like a talk about attractive boys. That was Nastassia's and my idea for convincing them to attend the show we planned. I don't think I have ever heard girls squeal so much. I guess that is what happens after a few months in an all girls school.

The best part by far was claiming our men.


Now for those juniors.




Today was okay, I think.
I need to find a place for us to go after the show.

fortune cookies are

basically telling me everything I need to do with my life.



Thank god for ordering chinese food tonight.


"It's up to you to make the next move"
"You need to talk to someone about what's on your mind"


The first one is just way to true, I just wish I had the nerve to make a move. Sadly I don't have it in me. It be so much easier if you could just know how I feel without me ever having to say anything. I'm not really sure how to word my thoughts and my emotions. It is really complicated. At least I still have my friends and my family. I know they know what is in my heart, maybe you do too.




I hope so.

I have spent the

last three days surrounded by about 10 amazing people.



Now I'm at home with basically no one.
Well I mean my aunt is here and my mom and dad are going to come home, but it isn't the same. I hung out with people who keep me laughing and smiling. They never let you be sad and that is why I love them so much. I'm not going to see them for so long though, at least there are a few other people I know who are the same way.

That still doesn't change the fact that I am currently at home in the office with no one to talk to and nothing to do. Being lonely is possibly the worst feeling ever, and I don't know how to change it, really. At least I have my computer and bed to keep me company.


Errrrr.

I can't stand reading

these bulletins on myspace.


if he likes you.


1. he will sit by you whenever he can

2. he always takes things from you and hides them

3. he makes eye contact as much as possible

4. he messes with your hair

5. he laughs at you just to see you smile and tell him to shut up!

6. he asks about your day

7. When the two of you have play fights, he always agrues, no matter what

8. he sneaks up on you

9. his friends ask if youre going out yet

10. ..he tells you he loves you, and really means it




if she likes you:

1. she will wait for you.

2. she says hi to you EVERYTIME she sees you.

3. she SMILES whenever she sees you.

4. she walks as slow as she can when shes WITH you.

5. she plays with YOUR HANDS just to see if you'll let her hold them.

6. she teases you about stupid things.

7. she ASKS you to go places with her.

8. her friends ask you if you like her.

9. her friends point at you when youre with her.

10. she always "just happens" to be staring.

'11. she CAN'T CONCENTRATE on anything else except the next time she'll get to see you.

12. her HEART BEATS FASTER than normal at just the thought of your name.

13. her friends dont understand why she's attracted to you, but she cant think of ANY REASON why she WOULDNT be attracted.

14. she purposely says shes cold just to see if youll hug her or hold her.

15...and when you do... SHE WISHES YOU'D NEVER LET GO.







They really bother me alot.
I want to repost them so badly because I really fear that if I don't than I'm screwed for life.

Ugh, I really wish I was in a better mood right now.
This sucks cause no one can cheer me up.

This is way too good

to be true.
I absolutely love my life & the way everything seems to fall into place when you expect it all to fall apart.


That is the most beautiful thing about life I think, how everything can be so randomly amazing.





But these four events are going to be the highlights of the next two months.

Nov 21st - Valencia @ Irving
Dec 8th - Fundrasier @ My School.
Dec 27th - Valencia @ The Troc
Dec 28th - Valencia @ SOR


Yah, maybe it is a little out of hand but that is fine with me.

I'm an over analyzer

& it is getting out of hand.



I really can't be left alone in my own thoughts, cause they really get out of hand at time. I can spend hours thinking about something. I think so hard about little things that my opinion about it changes constantly. And I can probably come up with a thousand reasons supporting each thought but I could never convince of it. That made complete sense to me but probably made none to anyone else who is reading this, which is probably no one because I don't think many people care all that much about what I have to say.

The worst is when I do it about him. He doesn't even know I do either.
I could spend hours debating and giving myself reasons for him not to like me but I can never seem to come up with a reason for him to like me. It disappoints me alot actually. I really need to work on that. I really shouldn't assume anything about it becasue I can't read his mind. I don't know what he is thinking. I can't assume that he likes or that he doesn't. I just need to convince myself that I need to focus about how I feel about him not how he feels.

That was a long rant full of over analyzing, but that's nothing new.

I'm very lucky to

know some very good people, who honestly care.







I really am.
I have amazing friends who really care about me & I'm not sure why but I am really glad I have them in my life.


Tonight was really good, I went out to dinner with Sophia and then we went to the Knitting Factory to see Luis. He was really amazing. One talented guy, plus he is really funny. Family Force 5 was pretty intense, I've never seen a crowd go so crazy.
But everyone should check out The Secret Handshake, www.myspace.com/thesecrethanshake .

I feels really odd

not talking to him.








I hate it so much. I basically talk to him everyday and then I don't know.
I don't really like it very much.

I'm not sure what is

wrong.

I feel so drained lately.


Physically
Emotionally


I don't feel like even leaving the house anymore.
I feel like there is just no reason for me to get up and go out.





Honestly there is no reason for this, I mean have nothing to complain about at all. Life is good, great actually, so why do I feel like this all the time.

& last night didn't help.
I expected so much more of the night.
Maybe it wasn't the night that I expected more of maybe it was a person who was there.
I'm not sure, but it was a bit of a let down.

I don't know what to do with myself.